more beach day...

i love this... mid run!

and coming back for a kiss.  i love how his whole body is involved in this...

couldn't stop long enough for a good pic!

hmm...  should i go play by the waves?

nah... here is good!

she'd come to tattle on something.  and i had wanted a pic.  so i tried to get her to stop crying...   almost worked!

love this man.  seriously!  he gave up watching bball to take me to the beach!  cause it had been 10 days.  and i needed it!

he tried to escape.

but decided to come back...

we have had a crazy, busy few days.  my brother and sister and future sister in law graduate from college tomorrow.  i graduated 10 years ago.  hard to believe.  hard to not be with family.  but, it's MILITARY SPOUSE APPRECIATION DAY.  and it was our change of command ceremony today (one captain leaves, another takes over..)

military things always make me cry.  and i realized today, that i don't know how to do it different.  this is how i know life.  i don't know what it's like to think about having kids and not have to wonder if my husband will be around for the delivery.  if his ship will be on the other side of the world.  to plan vacations and know he'll never make it.  or wonder if this year, he might just get off.  to buy plane tickets and never be sure if we are going to have to pay change fees or cancel his at the last minute.  to wonder if we will spend another birthday/mother's day/anniversary/Christmas apart, or going in to the ship to dine with daddy there.  or to plan life around a ship pulling in or out.  to think about the next year and get anxious because there are only xxxx days left until he's gone again.  

but i also don't know what it's like to stay in one place.  to not have to rely on the new friends i just met to get me through bad days.  to have people that i BARELY know, but they know more about me than friends i have had for years.  i am so thankful for those ladies.  and so thankful for our life.  i wouldn't trade all the bad for a husband that came home every day.  or never left for months on end.  i love being a military spouse.

i love sitting at this change of command and watching all the pomp and circumstance.  and looking to my left and seeing the uss arizona memorial.  and the uss missouri (where they signed the treaty to end ww2).  and remembering all the wives that have gone before me.  and to hear them blow the whistle to bong the captain off and think about how many times they have done this over the years.  

it's a hard life.  but life is hard.  and i am thankful for this life.  and for my husband, who serves his country so wonderfully!  (and handsomely... but i know i am the only one that appreciates that!)

pics to come this weekend...

happy military spouse appreciation day!