if you want me to...

so, there are a lot of words i didn't mention!!  sorry about that...  grammie and grandpa are two that top that list!!!  i thought i had all the family members in there.  she also learned a new one yesterday...  orange!  she was sick and miserable yesterday.  she threw a 45 minute temper tantrum.  you may wonder what kind of parent lets their child throw a tantrum that long, but i could tell it wasn't anger.  she was hurting and couldn't tell me what was wrong.  (i woke up with a sore throat, and realized that if she felt like i did, or worse, that could be the cause...)  i did give her some motrin, and i think that's what finally ended the tantrum.  you could tell when it kicked in!!  poor girl...  it's no fun to watch your baby be sick.  and, she ONLY wanted mommy.  she pushed daddy away and gave him dirty looks.  his normal charms had no effect on her!  (and she usually LOVES her daddy...)  i felt bad for him.  but, he did let me go get coffee with a friend...  

 

the only thing she would eat yesterday was clementines.  (hence the orange)  she went to town on them!!  i figured the vitamin c was a good thing!

okay, so an aside.  in my Bible study, i was reminded of a song i loved in college.  it's called "If You Want Me To" by Ginny Owens.  it fit where i have been in my life recently.  i know that as a Christian, i am not guaranteed a life of health, wealth and prosperity.  but, God is going to work all things for HIS good...  and that might not look like good to me at the time.  i continue to learn that i like His plans so much better than mine.  they do work out better.  so, here are the lyrics.  maybe you'll enjoy them like i have!!

the pathway is broken

the signs are unclear

and i don't know the reasons why you brought me here

but just because you love me the way that you do

i'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to

cause i'm not who i was when i took my first step

and i'm clinging to the promise you're not through with me yet

so if all of these trials bring me closer to you

i'm gonna walk through the fire if you want me to

it may not be the way i would have chosen

when you lead me through a world that's not my home

but you never said it would be easy

you only said i'd never go alone

so when the world turns against me and i'm all by myself

and i can't hear you answer my cries for help

i'll remember the suffering your love put me through

and i will go through the valley if you want me to 

there are so many things in life i wouldn't have chosen, but in those moments, i get so much closer to God.  i have seen and felt my faith grow so much in the small trials we have had recently.  and i have seen Him do miracles and really grow me.  and He gets the glory...  i am just trying to remember that this should be my first response... not worry and anxiety for a long time, before turning to God in desperation. 

there's my sermon for the day!  thankfully, we are all feeling better today!!